There is so much more to Jesus than what they’ve been telling you.

I don’t know who needs to hear this, but if it’s you— take a moment. Please.

————————

I attempted suicide in my dorm room of ASU in January 2010 for the 1st time. It was the lowest I had ever been.

I was addicted and broken.

Abusive and manipulative.

Dying.

I was NOT a Christian, and honestly proud of it.

I only knew the Jesus that other Christians had told me about.

The ones that made me believe he couldn’t love a sinner like me. I didn’t want any part of a relationship where I had to change who I was to be loved.

Life was already hard enough.

THAT day— the D-day— I had taken a bunch of pills because the walls told me to.

When I told them I didn’t want to, they started closing in on me.

They began to shake and rattle.

I felt as though I was going to be crushed by this building and I took the pills to make it stop, but it didn’t stop.

It lied to me.

I called out to Jesus.

I didn’t know him. I didn’t even know if he would come.

But I called out to him, begging him to save me.

I never saw him.

I blacked out to my college roommate and a group of first responders running into my room. I’m not sure how they got there.

Maybe I called someone?

————————

Three years ago, I was praying and I asked Jesus why he didn’t come for me.

Suddenly, I was back in the room and I was watching the walls closing in.

I could hear my heavy breathing.

The crying. The begging.

And I looked in the middle of the room.

And there! There He was!

I never knew Him. But there, in the middle of the room, He was – unconditionally loving me- running headfirst into battle on my behalf.

There He was—

Holding

Up

The

Walls

——————

I am not “special”. Jesus loves you and He wants the best for you.

So much so that he gave up everything for you to have that chance.

I finally gave my heart to Jesus on the floor of a church on October 26, 2014.

And ever since then, he’s been peeling away the layers of pain, uncovering the brokenness, teaching me to tend to my spiritual garden.

And I am thriving.

There is SO MUCH MORE to Jesus than they’ve been telling you. Don’t take my word for it.

Find out for yourself.

What’s left to lose?

Join our newsletter–

We love to share information with our new and aspiring resellers. We also love sharing experiences with our established reselling members. If you’re wondering if reselling is right for you, if you’re interested in updates, learning experiences, and stories, or if you’re just a lover of lifestyle, join our newsletter! Each week, we give you an update on resources, information, and stories to help you along the way, wherever you might be on the journey. Join now!

Leave a Reply

%d bloggers like this: